You work with a different kind of enthusiasm if you know, that you intend to quit in about six months. The emphasis remains on the word 'intend', because in all probability I will end up not doing any such thing. What it does really, is that springs up this feeling of resilience inside. There are people who can live in mere anticipation of change. I'm one of them. It makes me believe that there's always something better that awaits. Some people need a good job, I need a good reassurance that things will change, no matter how bad a job I'm in .
Now I've been trying to figure out a pattern in this thought process. It's just occurred to me, that I could be artificially forcing things on myself , trying unnaturally to go against the drift. Is that really so?- I ask myself. It's only to be seen- I answer back. No matter what , it's a win-win. I mean, if I'm right in deciphering this pattern then gung-ho goes the analyst in me, else this going against the drift might just pay off. I've talked about risk management earlier. It's such a funny little thing. How can one even calculate it? It's not partial. It's there, or it isn't. As I see it, either I'm going to make a fool of myself or I'm not. As simpull as that.
In line with the job shedding plans, I thought how an exit interview would look like. By intuition, it's an interview where you can remove your hat of diplomacy and speak up what you really have to say about your work, the organization and more importantly- the person exit-interviewing you. The most unsettling thought though is to evade : 'So,what after this? ' Am I allowed to say : Nothing much really. Actually, it's not about not being allowed to say something, but about being rational at all times. So what if she's my ex boss, I wouldn't want to give her a reason to believe : 'All the betta' that he left.' I'd expect her to sulk my absence, and every minute of it. ' You naatee naatee buoy' - says my inner voice.
